I'm just me.

Life, Work, Bleh.

So life is stressful as always being the fact that I’m 17 stuck in a 20 year old’s body. Night’s like tonight when I just want to go home and rest, Something always has to go wrong. I locked my keys in my car and spent a long time with a close hanger in the rain trying to unlock the door.  

                      I really feel insane, I’m making it so I can’t complain. For all I know no one in the world will read this so I don’t even understand why I am taking the time to write it. The good news is I am slowly working out my problems and relationships with everyone. It’s just so hard to be close to someone for so long and then before you know it everything is different and you’re ready to just run away. 

         I’m just confused about my life. I know what I want but I dont understand why I cant get there. I keep falling two steps short of all my goals everyday. I know I am not raising the bar to high I’m just failing at everything it seems like. But may the Lord be with me I can make it. Sink or Swim right?

Right now I’d rather sink. But for some reason. Something keeps me swimming. 

Starting College has been a weird experience. Definitely a challenge. Im use to not having to study at all, and being able to work through everything in less then 5 minutes! But i guess thats what happens when your 16 and in college! You end up stuck in a rut! I wrote my first paper today, and Im not feeling amazing about it. English has never really been my strong point but i hope to work hard to transfer into a better school next year! Even though im a nerd Im definitely a millionaire waiting to happen.